Reading

Bag of Bones by Stephen King

★★★★☆ | Horror | Digital + Audio | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads

I read this one before, some twenty years ago, but I didn’t remember much of it other than the setting: a log cabin set on a lake in western Maine. I had a hankering to revisit this place long locked away in my memory.

This is a classic haunted house with enough mystery and spooky parts to keep the pages turning. We meet many of the residents of this lakeside Maine setting, and King captures both the joy and discontent of multi-generational life in an isolated community. Having spent over twenty years on a rural island in Washington state, I laughed and cringed at the similarities.

But, like most good Stephen King novels, it’s the exploration of the deeper human condition that lingers.  In this case, the grief of losing a soulmate and how a loss like that changes you.

Grief is like a drunken house guest, always coming back for one more goodbye hug.

The narrator is a well-known writer who suffers from a debilitating bout of writer’s block. Through him, we learn a lot about the highs and lows of the publishing industry. The title is borrowed from a Thomas Hardy quote after he stopped writing novels: “the most brilliantly drawn character in a novel is but a bag of bones.” It’s a humble admission from our generation’s greatest storyteller that, as effortless as the final product seems to readers, writing is a tough business.

Highlights

I think reality is thin, you know, thin as lake ice after a thaw, and we fill our lives with noise and light and motion to hide that thinness from ourselves.

This is how we go on: one day at a time, one meal at a time, one pain at a time, one breath at a time. Dentists go on one root-canal at a time; boat-builders go on one hull at a time. If you write books, you go on one page at a time. We turn from all we know and all we fear. We study catalogues, watch football games, choose Sprint over AT&T. We count the birds in the sky and will not turn from the window when we hear the footsteps behind us as something comes up the hall; we say yes, I agree that clouds often look like other things – fish and unicorns and men on horseback – but they are really only clouds. Even when the lightening flashes inside them we say they are only clouds and turn our attention to the next meal, the next pain, the next breath, the next page. This is how we go on.

Angle of Repose by Wallace Stegner

★★★★☆ | Literary Fiction | Digital + Print | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads 

This is a difficult book to describe without spoiling the entire story. There are two plot lines at work: the narrator, a severely disabled and reclusive scholar writing a history of his literary grandmother, and the life of that grandmother, her husband, and children, eking out a difficult life in 19th-century American West.

Quiet desperation is another name for the human condition.

Stegner is a favorite writer of mine, and I trusted him through the first 500 pages that all this story would transcend the descriptions of an untamed West and the travails of unlucky pioneers.

My patience was rewarded by a spectacular ending, though any other writer might have lost me long before I turned that final page.

I’ve now read four of Stegner’s novels, saving this one, his Pulitzer Prize winner, for the last. I thought Crossing to Safety was his best, and Big Rock Candy Mountain absolutely gutted me. Still, I think this one will stick with me for a long time.

Highlights

I am neither dead nor inert. My head still works. Many things are unclear to me, including myself, and I want to sit and think. Who ever had a better opportunity? 

Exposure followed by sanctuary was somehow part of Grandmother’s emotional need, and it turned out to be the pattern of her life. 

Is it not queer, and both desolating and comforting, how, with all associations broken, one forms new ones, as a broken bone thickens in healing. 

“What do you mean, ‘Angle of Repose’?” “I don’t know what it meant for her. I’ve been trying to make out. She said it was too good a phrase for mere dirt. But I know what it means for me.” “What?” “Horizontal. Permanently.”

Some cowardly, hopeful geometer in my brain tells me it is the angle at which two lines prop each other up, the leaning-together from the vertical which produces the false arch. For lack of a keystone, the false arch may be as much as one can expect in this life. Only the very lucky discover the keystone. 

Wisdom, I said oh so glibly the other day when I was pontificating on Shelly’s confusions, is knowing what you have to accept. In this not-quite-quiet darkness, while the diesel breaks its heart more and more faintly on the mountain grade, I lie wondering if I am man enough to be a bigger man than my grandfather. 

On Boxing by Joyce Carol Oates

★★★☆☆ | Sports | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph

Joyce Carol Oates might be the least likely person ever to write a book about boxing. And yet she did. Like me, she developed a lifelong appreciation for the sport, ultimately growing to love it, by watching fights with her father as a child. But it’s clear that she feels a natural disquiet with her own fascination with the sport, and the essays in this book circle and dance around that central premise: why, in our modern, civilized society, is boxing still a thing? Why wasn’t this sport banned decades ago?

Oates doesn’t think boxing should be banned. She points out that sports like football and motor racing are statistically more dangerous. On the contrary, she sees boxing as something much larger; a deep-seated religion with its rules and ceremony, taking the audience out of their normal lives into a different plane of existence.

A brilliant boxing match, quicksilver in its motions, transpiring far more rapidly than the mind can absorb, can have the power that Emily Dickinson attributed to great poetry: you know it’s great when it takes the top of your head off. (The physical imagery Dickinson employs is peculiarly apt in this context.)

I’ve been a boxing fan for so long that I’ve taken for granted its many bizarre aspects. In her poetic and literary style, she deftly dissects the sport and considers its strangest aspects and its larger-than-life participants (I still cannot imagine the diminutive and acerbic Joyce Carol Oates interviewing Mike Tyson during his early days as a young champion).  For example, why is there a need for a referee? The combat demands a witness, and it would be simply too barbaric to allow the fighters to slug each other without some paternal oversight.

My complaint with the book relates to editing. Many of the points made in the title essay, On Boxing, were repeated again and again in later essays. These were standalone magazine articles that were never meant to be published together in a book.

Favorite Highlights

All athletes age rapidly but none so rapidly and so visibly as the boxer.

Spectators at public games derive much of their pleasure from reliving the communal emotions of childhood but spectators at boxing matches relive the murderous infancy of the race.

One might compare the time-bound public spectacle of the boxing match (which could be as brief as an ignominious forty-five seconds—the record for a title fight!) with the publication of a writer’s book. That which is “public” is but the final stage in a protracted, arduous, grueling, and frequently despairing period of preparation.

The primary rule of the ring—to defend oneself at all times—is both a parody and a distillation of life.

Mailer’s strength lies in his recognition that the boxers are other—though he does not say so, even in the long extravagant meditation of The Fight (its title in homage to Hazlitt’s great essay),

We who write live in a kaleidoscopic world of ever-shifting assessments and judgments, unable to determine whether it is revelation or supreme self-delusion that fuels our most crucial efforts.

Surely it is championship chess, and not boxing, that is our most dangerous game—at least so far as psychological risk is concerned. Megalomania and psychosis frequently await the grand master when his extraordinary mental powers can no longer be discharged onto the chessboard.)

In one study it was estimated that 87 percent of boxers suffer some degree of brain damage in their lifetimes, no matter the relative success of their careers.

Self-reliance and Other Essays by Ralph Waldo Emerson

★★★★★ | Essays | Digital | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads 

Ah, Ralph Waldo Emerson: what a treasure. I’ve read most of these essays before, but never so deeply, and never with such illumination.  His wisdom is simple to understand, yet difficult to practice in a world of popular opinion and distracted thinking. Trust your own thoughts.  Be yourself. Don’t try to impress or copy others. Cherish your friends. Most of all: be present. Life is here, now; life is not studying the people or times of long ago or so-called leaders preaching hate and divisiveness.

Most men have bound their eyes with one or another handkerchief, and attached themselves to some one of these communities of opinion. This conformity makes them not false in a few particulars, authors of a few lies, but false in all particulars.

Self-Reliance is his most famous essay, and it reads as fresh today as in Emerson’s time.  I enjoyed lesser-known Circles, which contends that all our knowledge and enthusiasms are temporary, soon to be replaced by even greater knowledge and better enthusiasms. To find truth, embrace change and nature. And Compensation, which celebrates the neutrality and balance of nature, even in grief:

The death of a dear friend, wife, brother, lover, which seemed nothing but privation, somewhat later assumes the aspect of a guide or genius; for it commonly operates revolutions in our way of life, terminates an epoch of infancy or of youth which was waiting to be closed, breaks up a wonted occupation, or a household, or style of living, and allows the formation of new ones more friendly to the growth of character.

Emerson wrote Compensation before the death of his five-year-old son Waldo. His take on grief would turn bitter in his follow-on essay, Experience.

Alongside these essays, I’m slowly reading through a collection of Emerson’s journals. It’s amazing to watch him shape his thinking as these roughshod ideas appear and evolve over time in his private musings.

Favorite Highlights

Books are for the scholar’s idle times. When he can read God directly, the hour is too precious to be wasted in other men’s transcripts of their readings.

Whoso would be a man must be a nonconformist.

Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind. Absolve you to yourself, and you shall have the suffrage of the world.

A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds, adored by little statesmen and philosophers and divines. With consistency a great soul has simply nothing to do. He may as well concern himself with the shadow on the wall.

The voyage of the best ship is a zigzag line of a hundred tacks. See the line from a sufficient distance, and it straightens itself to the average tendency.

Prayer as a means to effect a private end is meanness and theft. It supposes dualism and not unity in nature and consciousness.

People wish to be settled: only as far as they are unsettled is there any hope for them.

In nature every moment is new; the past is always swallowed and forgotten; the coming only is sacred. Nothing is secure but life, transition, the energizing spirit.

Always do what you are afraid to do.

We Live Here Now by Sarah Pinborough

★★★☆☆ | Mystery-Suspense | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads

I picked this up after Stephen King recommended it as an engaging haunted house book. I’ve been doing some heavy reading lately. An entertaining book sounded appealing.

The premise and setting had terrific potential, but one-dimensional characters, plot holes, and poor editing hobbled the story. It felt like a book written under the pressure of an unrealistic deadline.

Still, I finished it quickly, so it served as a welcome break from more serious reading.

The Best American Essays 2024 by Wesley Morris (editor)

★★★☆☆ | Essays | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads

I’m on an essay kick, and this annual “Best American” series always provides a wide range of thought-provoking takes. Unlike past years, where I tended to pick and choose what I read, for this latest volume, I read each essay in order, skipping none.

Out of 22 essays, there were only a few that I scratched my head over, wondering what it was that the editor saw in the piece. Most I enjoyed, and a few were very, very memorable. My favorites:

On the Calculation of Volume (Book I) by Solvej Balle

★★★★☆ | Literary Fiction | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads 

This insightful review by Adam Woods of On the Calculation of Volume (Book I) intrigued me enough to read this puzzling book, the first of a planned seven-volume series. Five books have been published in Balle’s native Danish with just the first two translated into English.

The narrator, Tara Selter, is caught in a time loop, reliving November 28th over and over again. It’s Groundhog’s Day but with an existential slant on the meaning of self, time, mortality, sustainability, and the inevitable progression of love and marriage.

The science fiction involved with being stuck in a time loop takes a back seat to these serious questions, often in a rhythmic, repetitive style. The plot is thin for most of the novel as the narrator explores an existence devoid of change and together yet split apart from the one she loves.

This first book piqued my curiosity enough that I will certainly continue the series with Book II. I hope a few of my lingering questions will be answered in time.

On Tyranny by Timothy Snyder

★★★★☆ | History | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads

A concise summary of the tactics used by totalitarian governments to suppress freedom and democracy. Clear examples from twentieth-century despots support each of the twenty lessons. Reading this on the heels of The Rise and Fall of the Third Reich helped me crystalize the most significant actions taken by Hitler to assume his reign of terror.

The Rise and Fall of the Third Reich by William L. Shirer

★★★★☆ | History | Digital | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads

I read this classic to learn about Nazi Germany and the rise of fascism to understand better any parallels we might be seeing in the United States today. The first third of the book revealed many examples of Hitler’s power grab that felt very eerily similar to Trump. So many that you could make the case that Trump used Hitler as a role model for his political ambitions, as scary as that sounds.

Maximum Bob by Elmore Leonard

★★★★☆ | Mystery-Suspense | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph

A recent New Yorker article by Anthony Lane prompted me to read this one, my first Elmore Leonard book. I enjoyed the pacing and dialogue and colorful cast of characters, all set in languid south Florida. The book ends with a promising turn for Kathy Baker, the main protagonist of the novel, but if I remember correctly, Leonard wasn’t in the habit of writing sequels or carrying characters from book to book. A little sad we never get to see what happens next.

The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald

★★★★★ | Literature | Print + Digital | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads 

Ah, Gatsby. It’s been a moment. I last read this book in college, and although I remember the story, I’m fairly sure I missed the point. It has been good for me to go back and reread these perennial classics that I thought I knew.

Here we have a true American tragedy, wrapped in social wit and irony, stewed in alcohol and disillusionment, where wealth, whether old or new, buys not love, but misery, where the strong moral values of the Midwest prove all too corruptible, where the very premise of the American Dream is nothing more than a cheat, a scam.

Other than maybe Gatsby, there isn’t a trustworthy or likeable character in the bunch. Ungrateful, snobbish, and vain, they look at people as novelties to play with and discard. Even Nick, our narrator, is cruel and two-faced. While her husband, Tom, is despicable, Daisy Buchanan is the real villain of this story. Her voice is full of money, Gatsby tells us. Not love, not empathy, not kindness. Money.

Brightness Falls by Jay McInerney

★★★★★ | Literary Fiction | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads

I didn’t like this book at first. I felt claustrophobic, there in the first chapter, squeezed in at the kids’ table surrounded by a large group of strangers at a Manhattan apartment dinner party. These guests were too witty, overly confident, and entirely full of themselves. Who talks like this? And more pressing, who would want to read an entire novel with these assholes?

But I persevered. In fact, it was the Manhattan setting of this book that initially drew me.  I lived in New York in the mid-1990s and recently returned to an apartment on the Upper East Side, where much of the story takes place.  McInerney’s first book, Bright Lights, Big City, helped to convince me to move to New York when I read it in college. The descriptions of the city, its magic, and absurdity were spellbinding. The city itself becomes a character in the story, which we follow over a year, from the bitter cold of winter through the languor of summer to the bracing beauty of fall.

Nightmares and Dreamscapes by Stephen King

★★★★☆ | Horror | Audio/Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads 

I’m continuing my quest to read every book published by Stephen King. I’m down to short story collections and a few of his less (ahem) popular novels.

Nightmares and Dreamscapes isn’t King’s best short story collection. I think that award goes to You Like It Darker from last year. But any collection of stories by this generation’s master storyteller is still pretty great.

London Rules by Mick Herron

★★★★☆ | Spy-Detective | Digital | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads 

Another brilliant volume in the wonderful Slow Horses saga. Jackson Lamb is as disgusting and brilliant as ever, with the Slow Horses needing to save the day from the arrogance and pervasive politics of the intelligence service leaders.  All of the Slow Horses are fighting some inner demon: an addiction, anger issues, or a past mistake that cannot be undone. Yet, despite the odds, they manage to pull together as a unit and save the day.  Fun, funny, and suspenseful.  I love these Slow Horses!

Gerald’s Game by Stephen King

★★★☆☆ | Horror | Digital | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads

Stephen King must have felt he needed a challenge when he started this one. How about a horror novel with just one character handcuffed to a bed with the only way to move the story along is through inner dialogue. Oh, and let that character be a woman, and let that woman be sexually abused by her father as a child. Yep, that would be a challenge.

And, I guess he succeeded? Maybe? I’m torn over this one, because it feels offensive to me that a male author would attempt to put himself in the tortured mind of an abused woman.

Revenge of the Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell

★★★★☆ | Psychology | Audio | Borrow | StoryGraph | Goodreads

Another great Malcolm Gladwell read. I think I’ve read all his books now and even took his Masterclass on writing. I listened to the audiobook, which was the perfect format for this one. Gladwell has an engaging reading voice and employed his podcast artistry by including recordings of his interviewees in the audiobook. I love how we weaves together diverse topics into a central theme.

Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway

★★★★★ | Literature | Print + Digital | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads

Rereading a book you haven’t read in 40 years is an interesting experience. I remembered only the bleakness but little of the story itself. I enjoyed most of the book, though all the decades of Hemingway parodies and copycats stole some of its luster. Still, it is a timeless classic that reinvented the novel. Makes me want to go back and read all those books I read when I was young. If this one is any guide, it will be like reading them again for the first time.

If people bring so much courage to this world the world has to kill them to break them, so of course it kills them. The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills.

Crossing to Safety by Wallace Stegner

★★★★★ | Literary Fiction | Print + Digital | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads

What a beautiful and poignant book. Hopeful and joyous at the possibilities of life, but bookended by the realities of disappointment and loss. 

You can plan all you want to. You can lie in your morning bed and fill whole notebooks with schemes and intentions. But within a single afternoon, within hours or minutes, everything you plan and everything you have fought to make yourself can be undone as a slug is undone when salt is poured on him. And right up to the moment when you find yourself dissolving into foam you can still believe you are doing fine.

Quiet by Susan Cain

★★★★☆ | Psychology | Print + Digital | Own | StoryGraph | Goodreads

Fascinating deep dive into the world of introversion and extroversion. Some meaningful parts of our temperament are genetic and passed down from our parents. If you’re a fussy, highly sensitive baby at four months, there’s a good chance you’ll grow up to be introverted. There seems to be a biological connection between high physical sensitivity and introversion.

Highly sensitive people also process information about their environments—both physical and emotional—unusually deeply. They tend to notice subtleties that others miss—another person’s shift in mood, say, or a lightbulb burning a touch too brightly.

According to Cain, bloggers are almost always introverts. We’ll share personal details with an online multitude they would never disclose at a cocktail party. This is me.

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